i bec le...

finally can online le..
hehe..
ll update is blog from time to time
haha

1st time n last time...

heheh..
today i sit 4 my final paper 4 my entire uni life...
hah..
i duno..
jus i finish then jus out b4 the time is up..
haha...
it is the 1st time thru my 4 years in uni..
n my last time also
hha
good luck 4 me...

i miss u....

dunno when u ll read my blog again..
jus 2 let u know tat i miss u...
i do..
i ll start workin from june in LUMUT..(s mention in the previous post)
so i wont b able to meet u o hear anything news from u anymore..
nt bcos i m angry o wat..
jus bcos i m so unwillingly to leave u...
hah..
bt i stil ve 2 leave u...
jus when u miss me..
then tell me..
i ll change my job place after three years...
if possible..
hope to meet u at there...
i love u...

packin n leavin soon....

hhaa....
today i see my roommate start packin le..
he finished his paper ealier tho v r takin the same courses..
i stil gt 1 more paper left..
then i saw he packin..
feel so envy!!..
hha..cos start packin mean can bec soon le...
so i also decide to start packin..
hhe..
so i alomost done..
i pack the memory n the things in le..
i know i gonna miss here..
i gonna miss u..
n u....n u...
hha..
all the best to u all...
i ll take the offer to work in LUMUT there..
so wont ve lot time to meet u guys le...
all the best..
i love u...

1st paper n final paper....

hah..
wat i mean is tis is the 1st paper n final paper tat i ll face in DU...
hha..
so reluctant to ;eave tho here stil sick..
hah....
dunno when i ll bec here again..
miss here a lot..
sure ll de...

another offer again?

haha..
went to interview yesterday..
gt a job
salary is 1.8k..
low pay but ve to work 4 6 days /week...
n if ve 2 rush project..ve to do 7 days/ week....
it is a good career..
cos when u gt experience..u ll gt a higher paid 4 sure..
mayb ll reach around 10k....
i stil thinkin cos tat place is damn rural...
i dunno if i can stay at ther 4 so long o nt...
need to take certificate only ll leave if reli work at ther...

wat the fuck???!!

dunno y today jus feel nt rite..
i mean my body..
i slep at 9 at night..then waked up by fren at 11...
then hanging out n do some study til 4 am..
feel like slep..
then off the light n slep..
jus slep around 5 min..
i woke up!!
wat the hell..
jus cant slep..
then i continue my study til 5 am..yeah..
study 4 another half an hour..
then slep again..
after 1 hour..
stomach feel like nt rite!!!
wake up n go toilet..
after tat i dun reli slep again..
to i drink a large cup of soya milk..
bt stil feel the pain..
after tat decide go eat something(dun think is gastric cos jus ve my supper around 3 am)
bec home n decide take medi..
i whole day only slep nt more than 4 hours!!
i m dying le....

nice song...

This is the way you left me
I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory
No Happy Ending
This is the way that we love
Like it's forever
Then live the rest of our life
But not together

Wake up in the morning
stumble on my life
Can't get no love
without sacrifice
If anything should happen
I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven
but a little bit of hell
This is the hardest story
that I've ever told
No hope,or love,or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday
2 o'clock in the morning
something's on my mind
Can't get no rest
keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin'
ever went wrong
I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on
No hope, or love, or glory
A Little bit of love
little bit of love
little bit of love..
To live the rest of our life

reject her?

m..
this few days been bothered by some problem..
nearly into a relation ship..
but i jus dun feel rite about it..
cos i jus dun ve thestrong feel about her..
but she has..
i m so scare to hurt a gal again...
i jus wan to be in love jus to let go something?
i think this motive is wrong..
it is not rite..
some fren tel me "go la..scare wat"
some of them say"u shouldnt start s u know tat she is nt the rite person"
so i also bit confuse...
time to make decision n rejct in a gd way is the best alternative...
thx 4 all ur opinion..
bless n miss...

new beginning le...

submit thesis le..
things that left are 2 study hard 4 my final le..
add oil pa..
n something ve to be puttin down n go on le..
no point carry those things v me...
time to find a new way..4 my new life...
future is waitin 4 me..
everthing good is at there waitin 4 me..
i ll be there..
i ll reach there..
i will success...
i will make it no matter hw...'i know u ll be there too all my fren..
lets make it!!..
it is our show nw...

sigh..redo o...

being told tat i m nt serious in doin report
so ve to re do..
haha...
so funny...
mus serious this time liao..
do lot changes..i mean my thesis
hah..n of course attitude ve 2 change!!!

FYP finish....

finally finish my fyp report..
nw wait 4 the viva n test..
wish me luck...

I gt an offer for sales engineer!!!!

hah..i thought that i cant get it
yt i gt it!!.
thx god..
i ll seriously consider it..
i mean it reli a gd job..
bt i prefer oil n gas field..
so my main concern will be oil n gas field!!
n if i cant gt..
i ll further my study??
dunno..
everything gt the possibilities for me..
haha...
i m so proud of myself..
bravo..
hehe

那就这样吧..

song that reli touched me..
haha..this period..i listen to lot songs..
mayb i should tune the channel 2 the rock n roll channel?
listen to some shout n yell song?
dunno..let u ve a look of this ong..


不要哭了吗
该哭的人是我吧
你都坦白爱上了他
我有什么办法
我也同意啦
既然你提出想法
我们不要拖拖拉拉
就从明天开始吧
那就这样吧
再爱都曲终人散啦
那就分手吧
再爱都无需挣扎
不要再问我
怎舍得拱手让他
你走吧
到了记得要给我通电话
那就这样吧
再爱都要Sayonara
再给抱一下
闻一闻你的长发
不要再哭啦
快把眼泪擦一擦
这样吧
再爱我有缘的话

不要哭了吗
该哭的人是我吧
你都坦白爱上了他
我有什么办法
我也同意啦
既然你提出想法
我们不要拖拖拉拉
就从明天开始吧
那就这样吧
再爱都曲终人散啦
那就分手吧
再爱都无需挣扎
不要再问我
怎舍得拱手让他
你走吧
到了记得要给我通电话
那就这样吧
再爱都要Sayonara
再给抱一下
闻一闻你的长发
不要再哭啦
快把眼泪擦一擦
这样吧
再爱我有缘的话
快去把东西收拾一下
再耗下去都天亮啦
这里的钥匙你先留着吧
怕你有东西
假如你有东西忘了拿
那就这样吧
再爱都曲终人散啦
那就分手吧
再爱都无需挣扎
不要再问我
怎舍得拱手让他
你走吧
到了记得要给我通电话
那就这样吧
再爱都要Sayonara
再给抱一下
闻一闻你的长发
不要再哭啦
快把眼泪擦一擦
这样吧
再爱我有缘的话

fyp?

half way..
yeah..
i nw in the methodologies liao..
soon can finish then..play!!!
haha
yeah..
i think manage grad kua??
hehe
good luck 2 me...

fyp?

new day bad start....

hah..
jus nw went to meet supervisor..
his secretary say"dia tak senang la...tungggu jam 11"
wah man..
so hard 4 me 2 meet him..
mayb i should make appointment v him 1st..
nw gettin nervous le..
scare cant finish my thesis
add oil la me...

thesis ing??(doin thesis)

start my own journey..
yeah...i gonna finish my thesis in 1 month time..
so i wun b lazy this time..
o think 3 think 4..
focus on my thesis is my main concern..
hehe
add oil la...

1/3

yeah..
the day ve come..
v able to deny the 2/3...
nw its time to change..
hope thos stupid old ass hole remember tat v r nt stupid...
fight DAP..fight keadilan..fight pas(tho i dun reli like them)
make sure u stil able to ve this victory x time..
well done n do the best u can...

wat i plan to do with u....

hha..mayb u ll wonder why i write tis..
i write this becoz i scare when i get older i ll lost the sense of romantic...
so i wan write down 2 remind myself n u also..
hehe..
1) i wan bring u to crowded area n hold u hand s tight s possible..i wan 2 feel the feelin of losin u..(cos if i lose u in the middle of the crowd..it ll be very hard 2 find u bec de..)
2)i wan take rapid kl(peneng o even sgp bus) with u..tho i ve my own transport..but i still it ll be fun if i take bus v u..n see the ppl around us...
3)plan to take train to a place with u..take train normaly is nite time..so i can hug u n slep on the bed..see the mornin scenery with u..
4)travel to a place n buy couple shoe for u n me..(heh..mayb u ll scare cos it look like nt gd idea cos hear ppl say like gf ll follow ppl run..so i suggest tat u pay me RM 1 for tat)
5)make paper flower 4 u...the paper is write full with "i love you"
6)learn cookin n cook together..hehe..mayb can start cook maggie 2gether le??
7)bring u bec my home let my parents open their eyes...hhe..let them see hw pretty u r...n hw happy i m when v u..
8)let u bring me 2 ur home..(hhe..also let ur parents see hw handsome i m..n 4 sure ll convince ur parents to believ me i m a gd husband)
9)prepare a union account for u n me..so v cn gather more money in short time...
10)wan to say "i love you"to u every mornin cos i dunno if i stil able to tell u so the x morning
11)hold ur hand to joggin...feel the sweat of ur hand..
12)go kl by double storey(dunno hw 2 spell deckle o) bus..n stay 1 nite at ther..go to walk walk in bintang walk so i can take lot picture v u so our children can see...
13)steally kiss u when u r deep in ur dream(tho most of the time i m the one slep like pig)..hhe..who know tat day i ll jus wake up n kiss u..
14)mus bring u to countdown christmsa n new year..hehe..play the fire cracker jus 4 u n me..(tho illegal..so mus do it steally also..)
15)be the shelter for u..carry the umbrella for u..be ur shoulder..wipe ur tears..n for sure wun let u get hurt..swollen eyes will make u look ugly de..
16)make sure your day if filled with happiness...
17)sing a complete love song to you..for you i ll repeat the song..for u i ll memorise the lyric..for you i will sing..jus for u..hehe
18)watch movies v u in couple seat...
hha..hope i reli can do the above things for you..m..
mayb i should say I WILL DO IT JUS FOR YOU?
haha...
will add in when i able to think of more...

politic talk!!

yesterday heard tat one of the leaders ll come..
all my fren gt so excited.
cant wait to meet him n hear wat he wanna say..
i cant even focus on my work..
cos he is my idol..(definitely nt BN candidate!!)
hhe..
so my housemate went ther on time..
but he fail to turn up on time!!
mayb tat is one of the criteria 2 b a leader??
heh..watever..wait ther for so long(1 hour)
heard ppl keep shoutin here n ther..spreadin rumour tat he is arrivin..
haa...
so fun..
then finally after 1 hour..he arrive le..
crowd get into crazy..
REFORMASI!!!yeah..tat the word ppl shout..
i also shout..
hhe..
so fun..
hear wat he say..
the way he present..
i should learn if i wanna b a leader..
hhe..
add oil..
hope u ll win this time..
hhe..
i support u de...
haha

一生最爱的人

你用你独特的温柔狠狠地
刺痛了我证明你已不爱我
你的感觉你那用心的依偎
普通朋友的相对以为我都没感觉
哦…答应我如果要离开我
请一定跟我说我会祝福让你走
如果没把握不要说你爱我
这样欺骗我我的心儿好难受
我没有误会你什么
因为看到你背后藏着淡淡的冷漠
你的眼泪流得那么的虚伪
像电影里的情节其实你都没所谓
哦…答应我如果要离开我
请一定跟我说我会祝福让你走
如果没把握不要说你爱我
这样欺骗我我的心儿好难受
哦…如果说你还是爱着我
让我俩再从头我会好好的把握
因为你是我一生最爱的人
我真的舍不得看着你让你走
不要说爱我不要说爱我
不要说你爱我
a lyric that touch me the most and shake me the most when i was down at this time...
hope u can read..
haha

rumors

yesterday hear some rumors about u..
my fren say they nt yt tell when v r so close..
only tell me nw..
then i ma listen 2 wat they say lo..
hah..
wat they say is jus so childish...
cos 4 me u r nt tat kind of ppl..
so it sure wun leave any impact in my heart...
u r stil u...
so sometime ppl care too muc about wat other ppl say..
n affect their decision..(i m one of those)
so nw wat i wan say is"wat ppl say is jus their own opinion..u the 1 tat do the things n u ll face the consequences..so if u r prepare 2 accept it..then jus go ahead..make urself ur own master..."
remember this words.."nobody can help except u urself..."take k n happy ther...

today

yeah..
today wake up early in the morning(630am)
cos yest slep at 9!!
heh
slep a lot..
1st time slep tat muc in this 2 weekss.
then wake up saw my roommate doin his things..
ask him 4 breakfast..
then go study lo..
til nw..
so busy days..
busy v my own simulation..
luckily didnt reli give the lecturer see my previous 1 as the previous 1 is wrong de!!
hehe..
luck is slowly but surely come bec 2 me..
heh..
positive thinkin huh?
fren say tat i m an ideal man..
yeah..
sometime i jus love to think positive especially about my future..
so unpredictable...
so y dun i make it look ebrighter so i ll be happier..
i m 1 foot in the society le..
i dunno if i m ready to work...
but i stil ve 2 face it..
mayb like tai lo say..
i dun ve 2 think so much...
everything ll come to u ..
yeah..
stil lookin 4 the days that v can reli hang out n ve some conversation..
bless me...
n bless u..
happy always..
u happy=i happy..
haha..
good day...
n miss ya all...

you...su yee...i love you ...

again you...
yesterday call you..
u say tat u love your current bf so much..
when i heard tat..
i know tat i m in problem..
cos when u in love v a ppl so deep..
u ll jus in love with him..
then i wun stay any slim chance 2 b with u again..
feel like crying tat time..
but when i think again..
if he is better than me..
n he can provide u v better thing..
i should happy..
becos i bliv u r happy with him..
love a ppl doesnt reli ve 2 put her by ur side..
jus when u happy..i also ll feel happy..
n for sure..
i love you 4ever and ever..
no matter hw..
u r fish n i m pig..
ur only pig..

your answer

been waiting for your answer le..
every time i ll gt disapointed..
this time again..
shall i wait?
i dunno..
shall i stay single all time?
i dunno?
wat i know is i love you ...
fuck me..
fuck the rules..
fuck all the regulations...
fuck all the ppl..
fuck the mother fuckin term n condition..
and fuck you!!!!

wat 2 choose again?

i get ur msg today early morning and it so happen tat i wake up at time too..
i also dunno hw i ll waked up by the tone..
thru your msg..
i knew u were hurt..
so do i..
i feel so guilty make u sad and sad again..
i dunno wat 2 do..
i jus smoke..
i cant stand of that kind of pressure..
i love you ..
bt i dun 1 u hurt n sad..
wat i should do?

wat u say...

wat u say is jus like wat expect..
haha..
wanna give chance 2 other?
i was sad when hear at tat time..
down 4 almost half day le...
but when i think bec n talk v my mother..
feel better le..
wat u say is like knife..
mayb i ve 2 move on le..
good luck...

lookin 4 the x chance?

just wrote u an email..
dunno how you will reply it..
so stil ve to wait...
i dunno wat the hell i was thinkin at that moment?
hah..
i reli dunno hw 2 appreciate u
i hope ther stil b a chance 4 me to love you again..

i am a sinful person

today..i read bec all the email u wrote to me
i suddenly realise that i was so selfosh.
i cant even give you wat is the a normal bf can give..
i ask too much from you and yet i jus give so little..
it reli suck...
it reli bad..
make me feel guilty..
if there is a chance..
i will change all the bad thing...
jus 2 love you more

her

suddenly i jus so miss her..
mayb becoz of the festival season?
o jus cannot gt gf phobia?
o jus bcoz i love her?
i dunno...
jus tis cny is nt a gd time 4 me..
cos it make me miss her lot more than usual..
help me.....

CNY wishes

yeah..cny is comin le..
been waitin 4 it 4 1 year le..
so long time..
happen lot thing within this year
bt stil ok s it make me tough n strong
n i stil alive!!
so hope this year all things will be smooth and easy for me..
n for you too...

wat i decide

after reli think it more than thousands times..
i think that nw is not my time 2 be in love again..
as it ll b bit early 4 me n her to make this important choices..
i think that i m rite at this time..
god bless

Choices

in life people tend to make a lot of decision in their life...
like in the junction, u ve to choose walk straight, turn left, turn right or even turning back..
the decision u make ll affect ur life for sure..
nw i m in the junction...
i ve to choose between the person i like or the person tat like me...
i dunno hw to choose...
mayb i should jus stand still and let HIM choose for me?
or shall i fight?
is there stil any chances for me to excel?
i also dunno....

reject again?

hha..
not even start get rejected le...
reli dunno y..
mayb she not suitable 4 me?
dunno..
shall i wait?
i also dunno..

Fyp

Fyp=final year project
i guess have to summit around march
so i think nw is the time start doin it le..
good luck 2 me n all those ppl doin fyp..

wher is her?

wher is her?
ya,,
been waitin for sometime le..
bt stil cant track her..
mayb it take time 4 me to locate wher is she..
mayb i should ve fully enjoy the single time..
mayb i should ve jus wait
mayb u should ve jus try my best..
mayb i shouldnt ve think so muc..
bliev tat she ll be mine no matter hw?
hah..dunno..jus it ll come at the correct time la..

she love me!!

2day after talk v her
she admit that she gt feel 2 me..
so i m blur nw
i know i dun reli love her coz i jus wan 2 ve someone by my side nw
so i dun think tat i m rite 4 her..
n i m waitin 4 another her..
i like ride cow look 4 horse..
so it is nt fair...
help me!!!

misunderstanding?

jus nw play msn v a fren..female..
she keep ask me if i miss her la..if i ll meet her la..
n when i ask y miss me?
she say i ll know de..
then i keep thinkin if the gal ve feel 2wards me?
bt i dun ve the feelin
so i ma say i dunno la..
then i msg her to ask her y she think tat..she reply say tat she say wrong le
i also hope it is a misunderstandin
cos i dun ve the feel 4 her..
i m waitin 4 someone..
someone tat waitn at ther 4 me too..
hhee
gd nite..