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I am so happy..so excited..

2011-09-16T23:08:00.000-07:00

today I feel so happy..
I think I had broke. the chain on me..
I feel like I am free from all this constrain..
I free from all the boundaries...
feel like reborn...
any words can't describe how I feel now..
I can't wait to break out this cage and be free!?
my time has came finally..
I locked myself for 4 years..
so..
I had paid back what I should paid..
time for me to look for the best path in my life..
I am happying..wahah

i lost something

2010-08-02T02:32:00.000-07:00

choosing path in my life...
never know it will be that hard..
never thought i will lead me to here..
never imagine that i ll lost something.
until now..
i knew that i had lost something...
i don't have the sense of humor..
i don't have the passion..
i don't have the heart...
i just lost it all..
the important parts of my life was thrown away..
now i am just a living without soul nor feeling..
like a walking zombie...
looking for flesh...
like an ant (ant got feeling or not)
hha..keep walking here and there..
like a boat in the ocean..
where should go..
if without any burden..i should have travel easier...go far away..
but i just don't know if this is the right way for me to sail..
where this path will lead me to??

i never regret...

2010-06-16T06:01:00.000-07:00

this 2 years..
i am here study my master..
i am alone through out this special journey..
so sometime i might think what will happen if i still got lot friends??
will i be more happier?
will my life become more interesting??
will i become more busier entertaining them??
but at the end..i come out with a conclusion..
i just dont need that much of friends...
some of them i never miss or think about them...
maybe they did the same too...
i just need a few friends in my life..
i need some quality friends indeed of quantity friends..
so i have no regret of what i did in this 2 years...
and definitely i don't have to regret...
i will cherish the friends that i have now..
they are my treasure...
just so happy to have few to stand with me when i am in the valley of my life..
thanks buddy...
love you all...

破镜难圆

2010-02-18T20:42:00.001-08:00

俗语说“破镜难圆”
如何说呢？
但一段感情被破坏了。。
你认为过了一段日子就会慢慢的复原。。
能够和好如初。。
能够当这一段是不存在的历史。。
认为时间能够治疗伤口。。
认为大家的成熟度能像三秒万黏胶。。
把破镜黏回去。。
那也许是你太天真了？
还是我们都不成熟？
那一段我们不愿承认的历史还是会在。。
不应该说的话也说了。。
我们放不下？
我们小气？
也许吧？
那就请你原谅我们吧。。
我想我们再也会不去以前了。。
我想我们彼此都错过了那一段黄金时段。。
我会不会想起那一段你和我们？
我会。。我怀念。。
但都回不去了。。
因为我们发现彼此都改变了。。
而你还是如此的老样子。。
你的脚步我们跟不上了。。
你有你的想法。。
你有你要走的路。。
你有你的未来。。
我们祝福你吧。。
为你祈祷。。
幸福快乐。。

a place that where i start...

2009-05-03T05:59:00.000-07:00

this is the place that i start write blog...
this is once a special place for me..
a place that we three share our high n low of our life...
a place that we can really say wat is inside our heart..
a place that with no secret..
a place that only three ppl know..
a place that unite us..
a place call heaven...
bt now...
here is no longer a heaven...
it is no longer a round table for us to discuss...
here is no longer the medium for us..
things change....
time change...
ppl change....
wat is still remain here is just the previous blogs that we left...
the comment that left by others....
anyway....
i just want to say i miss you...
to all of you who still checking this blog from time to time...
i dunno when i will put another post here.....
cos life is so uncertainties...
maybe tomoro or maybe next minute..or maybe i wont...
dunno...
life is a riddle....
that pack with questions but no answer....
haha...
maybe i am a freak that appear in the Dark Knight...
"for them, you are just like me, a freak"
i love this sentence...

i bec le...

2008-07-02T02:11:00.000-07:00

finally can online le..
hehe..
ll update is blog from time to time
haha

1st time n last time...

2008-04-21T20:47:00.001-07:00

heheh..
today i sit 4 my final paper 4 my entire uni life...
hah..
i duno..
jus i finish then jus out b4 the time is up..
haha...
it is the 1st time thru my 4 years in uni..
n my last time also
hha
good luck 4 me...

i miss u....

2008-04-17T01:54:00.000-07:00

dunno when u ll read my blog again..
jus 2 let u know tat i miss u...
i do..
i ll start workin from june in LUMUT..(s mention in the previous post)
so i wont b able to meet u o hear anything news from u anymore..
nt bcos i m angry o wat..
jus bcos i m so unwillingly to leave u...
hah..
bt i stil ve 2 leave u...
jus when u miss me..
then tell me..
i ll change my job place after three years...
if possible..
hope to meet u at there...
i love u...

packin n leavin soon....

2008-04-16T02:03:00.001-07:00

hhaa....
today i see my roommate start packin le..
he finished his paper ealier tho v r takin the same courses..
i stil gt 1 more paper left..
then i saw he packin..
feel so envy!!..
hha..cos start packin mean can bec soon le...
so i also decide to start packin..
hhe..
so i alomost done..
i pack the memory n the things in le..
i know i gonna miss here..
i gonna miss u..
n u....n u...
hha..
all the best to u all...
i ll take the offer to work in LUMUT there..
so wont ve lot time to meet u guys le...
all the best..
i love u...

1st paper n final paper....

2008-04-15T04:17:00.000-07:00

hah..
wat i mean is tis is the 1st paper n final paper tat i ll face in DU...
hha..
so reluctant to ;eave tho here stil sick..
hah....
dunno when i ll bec here again..
miss here a lot..
sure ll de...

another offer again?

2008-04-09T19:54:00.000-07:00

haha..
went to interview yesterday..
gt a job
salary is 1.8k..
low pay but ve to work 4 6 days /week...
n if ve 2 rush project..ve to do 7 days/ week....
it is a good career..
cos when u gt experience..u ll gt a higher paid 4 sure..
mayb ll reach around 10k....
i stil thinkin cos tat place is damn rural...
i dunno if i can stay at ther 4 so long o nt...
need to take certificate only ll leave if reli work at ther...

wat the fuck???!!

2008-04-07T18:34:00.001-07:00

dunno y today jus feel nt rite..
i mean my body..
i slep at 9 at night..then waked up by fren at 11...
then hanging out n do some study til 4 am..
feel like slep..
then off the light n slep..
jus slep around 5 min..
i woke up!!
wat the hell..
jus cant slep..
then i continue my study til 5 am..yeah..
study 4 another half an hour..
then slep again..
after 1 hour..
stomach feel like nt rite!!!
wake up n go toilet..
after tat i dun reli slep again..
to i drink a large cup of soya milk..
bt stil feel the pain..
after tat decide go eat something(dun think is gastric cos jus ve my supper around 3 am)
bec home n decide take medi..
i whole day only slep nt more than 4 hours!!
i m dying le....

nice song...

2008-04-07T11:48:00.001-07:00

This is the way you left me
I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory
No Happy Ending
This is the way that we love
Like it's forever
Then live the rest of our life
But not together

Wake up in the morning
stumble on my life
Can't get no love
without sacrifice
If anything should happen
I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven
but a little bit of hell
This is the hardest story
that I've ever told
No hope,or love,or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday
2 o'clock in the morning
something's on my mind
Can't get no rest
keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin'
ever went wrong
I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on
No hope, or love, or glory
A Little bit of love
little bit of love
little bit of love..
To live the rest of our life

reject her?

2008-04-07T10:53:00.000-07:00

m..
this few days been bothered by some problem..
nearly into a relation ship..
but i jus dun feel rite about it..
cos i jus dun ve thestrong feel about her..
but she has..
i m so scare to hurt a gal again...
i jus wan to be in love jus to let go something?
i think this motive is wrong..
it is not rite..
some fren tel me "go la..scare wat"
some of them say"u shouldnt start s u know tat she is nt the rite person"
so i also bit confuse...
time to make decision n rejct in a gd way is the best alternative...
thx 4 all ur opinion..
bless n miss...

new beginning le...

2008-04-04T20:24:00.000-07:00

submit thesis le..
things that left are 2 study hard 4 my final le..
add oil pa..
n something ve to be puttin down n go on le..
no point carry those things v me...
time to find a new way..4 my new life...
future is waitin 4 me..
everthing good is at there waitin 4 me..
i ll be there..
i ll reach there..
i will success...
i will make it no matter hw...'i know u ll be there too all my fren..
lets make it!!..
it is our show nw...

sigh..redo o...

2008-03-29T04:17:00.001-07:00

being told tat i m nt serious in doin report
so ve to re do..
haha...
so funny...
mus serious this time liao..
do lot changes..i mean my thesis
hah..n of course attitude ve 2 change!!!

FYP finish....

2008-03-26T20:06:00.000-07:00

finally finish my fyp report..
nw wait 4 the viva n test..
wish me luck...

I gt an offer for sales engineer!!!!

2008-03-20T20:57:00.000-07:00

hah..i thought that i cant get it
yt i gt it!!.
thx god..
i ll seriously consider it..
i mean it reli a gd job..
bt i prefer oil n gas field..
so my main concern will be oil n gas field!!
n if i cant gt..
i ll further my study??
dunno..
everything gt the possibilities for me..
haha...
i m so proud of myself..
bravo..
hehe

那就这样吧..

2008-03-18T20:08:00.000-07:00

song that reli touched me..
haha..this period..i listen to lot songs..
mayb i should tune the channel 2 the rock n roll channel?
listen to some shout n yell song?
dunno..let u ve a look of this ong..

不要哭了吗
该哭的人是我吧
你都坦白爱上了他
我有什么办法
我也同意啦
既然你提出想法
我们不要拖拖拉拉
就从明天开始吧
那就这样吧
再爱都曲终人散啦
那就分手吧
再爱都无需挣扎
不要再问我
怎舍得拱手让他
你走吧
到了记得要给我通电话
那就这样吧
再爱都要Sayonara
再给抱一下
闻一闻你的长发
不要再哭啦
快把眼泪擦一擦
这样吧
再爱我有缘的话

不要哭了吗
该哭的人是我吧
你都坦白爱上了他
我有什么办法
我也同意啦
既然你提出想法
我们不要拖拖拉拉
就从明天开始吧
那就这样吧
再爱都曲终人散啦
那就分手吧
再爱都无需挣扎
不要再问我
怎舍得拱手让他
你走吧
到了记得要给我通电话
那就这样吧
再爱都要Sayonara
再给抱一下
闻一闻你的长发
不要再哭啦
快把眼泪擦一擦
这样吧
再爱我有缘的话
快去把东西收拾一下
再耗下去都天亮啦
这里的钥匙你先留着吧
怕你有东西
假如你有东西忘了拿
那就这样吧
再爱都曲终人散啦
那就分手吧
再爱都无需挣扎
不要再问我
怎舍得拱手让他
你走吧
到了记得要给我通电话
那就这样吧
再爱都要Sayonara
再给抱一下
闻一闻你的长发
不要再哭啦
快把眼泪擦一擦
这样吧
再爱我有缘的话

fyp?

2008-03-17T03:31:00.002-07:00

half way..
yeah..
i nw in the methodologies liao..
soon can finish then..play!!!
haha
yeah..
i think manage grad kua??
hehe
good luck 2 me...

fyp?

2008-03-17T03:31:00.000-07:00

new day bad start....

2008-03-10T18:39:00.000-07:00

hah..
jus nw went to meet supervisor..
his secretary say"dia tak senang la...tungggu jam 11"
wah man..
so hard 4 me 2 meet him..
mayb i should make appointment v him 1st..
nw gettin nervous le..
scare cant finish my thesis
add oil la me...

thesis ing??(doin thesis)

2008-03-09T23:42:00.000-07:00

start my own journey..
yeah...i gonna finish my thesis in 1 month time..
so i wun b lazy this time..
o think 3 think 4..
focus on my thesis is my main concern..
hehe
add oil la...

1/3

2008-03-09T07:33:00.000-07:00

yeah..
the day ve come..
v able to deny the 2/3...
nw its time to change..
hope thos stupid old ass hole remember tat v r nt stupid...
fight DAP..fight keadilan..fight pas(tho i dun reli like them)
make sure u stil able to ve this victory x time..
well done n do the best u can...

wat i plan to do with u....

2008-03-09T07:10:00.000-07:00

hha..mayb u ll wonder why i write tis..
i write this becoz i scare when i get older i ll lost the sense of romantic...
so i wan write down 2 remind myself n u also..
hehe..
1) i wan bring u to crowded area n hold u hand s tight s possible..i wan 2 feel the feelin of losin u..(cos if i lose u in the middle of the crowd..it ll be very hard 2 find u bec de..)
2)i wan take rapid kl(peneng o even sgp bus) with u..tho i ve my own transport..but i still it ll be fun if i take bus v u..n see the ppl around us...
3)plan to take train to a place with u..take train normaly is nite time..so i can hug u n slep on the bed..see the mornin scenery with u..
4)travel to a place n buy couple shoe for u n me..(heh..mayb u ll scare cos it look like nt gd idea cos hear ppl say like gf ll follow ppl run..so i suggest tat u pay me RM 1 for tat)
5)make paper flower 4 u...the paper is write full with "i love you"
6)learn cookin n cook together..hehe..mayb can start cook maggie 2gether le??
7)bring u bec my home let my parents open their eyes...hhe..let them see hw pretty u r...n hw happy i m when v u..
8)let u bring me 2 ur home..(hhe..also let ur parents see hw handsome i m..n 4 sure ll convince ur parents to believ me i m a gd husband)
9)prepare a union account for u n me..so v cn gather more money in short time...
10)wan to say "i love you"to u every mornin cos i dunno if i stil able to tell u so the x morning
11)hold ur hand to joggin...feel the sweat of ur hand..
12)go kl by double storey(dunno hw 2 spell deckle o) bus..n stay 1 nite at ther..go to walk walk in bintang walk so i can take lot picture v u so our children can see...
13)steally kiss u when u r deep in ur dream(tho most of the time i m the one slep like pig)..hhe..who know tat day i ll jus wake up n kiss u..
14)mus bring u to countdown christmsa n new year..hehe..play the fire cracker jus 4 u n me..(tho illegal..so mus do it steally also..)
15)be the shelter for u..carry the umbrella for u..be ur shoulder..wipe ur tears..n for sure wun let u get hurt..swollen eyes will make u look ugly de..
16)make sure your day if filled with happiness...
17)sing a complete love song to you..for you i ll repeat the song..for u i ll memorise the lyric..for you i will sing..jus for u..hehe
18)watch movies v u in couple seat...
hha..hope i reli can do the above things for you..m..
mayb i should say I WILL DO IT JUS FOR YOU?
haha...
will add in when i able to think of more...

politic talk!!

2008-03-04T20:16:00.000-08:00

yesterday heard tat one of the leaders ll come..
all my fren gt so excited.
cant wait to meet him n hear wat he wanna say..
i cant even focus on my work..
cos he is my idol..(definitely nt BN candidate!!)
hhe..
so my housemate went ther on time..
but he fail to turn up on time!!
mayb tat is one of the criteria 2 b a leader??
heh..watever..wait ther for so long(1 hour)
heard ppl keep shoutin here n ther..spreadin rumour tat he is arrivin..
haa...
so fun..
then finally after 1 hour..he arrive le..
crowd get into crazy..
REFORMASI!!!yeah..tat the word ppl shout..
i also shout..
hhe..
so fun..
hear wat he say..
the way he present..
i should learn if i wanna b a leader..
hhe..
add oil..
hope u ll win this time..
hhe..
i support u de...
haha

一生最爱的人

2008-03-04T20:12:00.000-08:00

你用你独特的温柔狠狠地
刺痛了我证明你已不爱我
你的感觉你那用心的依偎
普通朋友的相对以为我都没感觉
哦…答应我如果要离开我
请一定跟我说我会祝福让你走
如果没把握不要说你爱我
这样欺骗我我的心儿好难受
我没有误会你什么
因为看到你背后藏着淡淡的冷漠
你的眼泪流得那么的虚伪
像电影里的情节其实你都没所谓
哦…答应我如果要离开我
请一定跟我说我会祝福让你走
如果没把握不要说你爱我
这样欺骗我我的心儿好难受
哦…如果说你还是爱着我
让我俩再从头我会好好的把握
因为你是我一生最爱的人
我真的舍不得看着你让你走
不要说爱我不要说爱我
不要说你爱我
a lyric that touch me the most and shake me the most when i was down at this time...
hope u can read..
haha

rumors

2008-03-03T02:06:00.000-08:00

yesterday hear some rumors about u..
my fren say they nt yt tell when v r so close..
only tell me nw..
then i ma listen 2 wat they say lo..
hah..
wat they say is jus so childish...
cos 4 me u r nt tat kind of ppl..
so it sure wun leave any impact in my heart...
u r stil u...
so sometime ppl care too muc about wat other ppl say..
n affect their decision..(i m one of those)
so nw wat i wan say is"wat ppl say is jus their own opinion..u the 1 tat do the things n u ll face the consequences..so if u r prepare 2 accept it..then jus go ahead..make urself ur own master..."
remember this words.."nobody can help except u urself..."take k n happy ther...

today

2008-03-03T01:47:00.000-08:00

yeah..
today wake up early in the morning(630am)
cos yest slep at 9!!
heh
slep a lot..
1st time slep tat muc in this 2 weekss.
then wake up saw my roommate doin his things..
ask him 4 breakfast..
then go study lo..
til nw..
so busy days..
busy v my own simulation..
luckily didnt reli give the lecturer see my previous 1 as the previous 1 is wrong de!!
hehe..
luck is slowly but surely come bec 2 me..
heh..
positive thinkin huh?
fren say tat i m an ideal man..
yeah..
sometime i jus love to think positive especially about my future..
so unpredictable...
so y dun i make it look ebrighter so i ll be happier..
i m 1 foot in the society le..
i dunno if i m ready to work...
but i stil ve 2 face it..
mayb like tai lo say..
i dun ve 2 think so much...
everything ll come to u ..
yeah..
stil lookin 4 the days that v can reli hang out n ve some conversation..
bless me...
n bless u..
happy always..
u happy=i happy..
haha..
good day...
n miss ya all...

you...su yee...i love you ...

2008-03-01T07:05:00.000-08:00

again you...
yesterday call you..
u say tat u love your current bf so much..
when i heard tat..
i know tat i m in problem..
cos when u in love v a ppl so deep..
u ll jus in love with him..
then i wun stay any slim chance 2 b with u again..
feel like crying tat time..
but when i think again..
if he is better than me..
n he can provide u v better thing..
i should happy..
becos i bliv u r happy with him..
love a ppl doesnt reli ve 2 put her by ur side..
jus when u happy..i also ll feel happy..
n for sure..
i love you 4ever and ever..
no matter hw..
u r fish n i m pig..
ur only pig..

your answer

2008-02-27T20:43:00.000-08:00

been waiting for your answer le..
every time i ll gt disapointed..
this time again..
shall i wait?
i dunno..
shall i stay single all time?
i dunno?
wat i know is i love you ...
fuck me..
fuck the rules..
fuck all the regulations...
fuck all the ppl..
fuck the mother fuckin term n condition..
and fuck you!!!!

wat 2 choose again?

2008-02-27T06:46:00.002-08:00

i get ur msg today early morning and it so happen tat i wake up at time too..
i also dunno hw i ll waked up by the tone..
thru your msg..
i knew u were hurt..
so do i..
i feel so guilty make u sad and sad again..
i dunno wat 2 do..
i jus smoke..
i cant stand of that kind of pressure..
i love you ..
bt i dun 1 u hurt n sad..
wat i should do?

wat u say...

2008-02-26T08:37:00.000-08:00

wat u say is jus like wat expect..
haha..
wanna give chance 2 other?
i was sad when hear at tat time..
down 4 almost half day le...
but when i think bec n talk v my mother..
feel better le..
wat u say is like knife..
mayb i ve 2 move on le..
good luck...

lookin 4 the x chance?

2008-02-18T04:48:00.000-08:00

just wrote u an email..
dunno how you will reply it..
so stil ve to wait...
i dunno wat the hell i was thinkin at that moment?
hah..
i reli dunno hw 2 appreciate u
i hope ther stil b a chance 4 me to love you again..

i am a sinful person

2008-02-17T03:38:00.000-08:00

today..i read bec all the email u wrote to me
i suddenly realise that i was so selfosh.
i cant even give you wat is the a normal bf can give..
i ask too much from you and yet i jus give so little..
it reli suck...
it reli bad..
make me feel guilty..
if there is a chance..
i will change all the bad thing...
jus 2 love you more

her

2008-02-13T23:09:00.000-08:00

suddenly i jus so miss her..
mayb becoz of the festival season?
o jus cannot gt gf phobia?
o jus bcoz i love her?
i dunno...
jus tis cny is nt a gd time 4 me..
cos it make me miss her lot more than usual..
help me.....

CNY wishes

2008-01-27T01:01:00.000-08:00

yeah..cny is comin le..
been waitin 4 it 4 1 year le..
so long time..
happen lot thing within this year
bt stil ok s it make me tough n strong
n i stil alive!!
so hope this year all things will be smooth and easy for me..
n for you too...

wat i decide

2008-01-21T01:40:00.000-08:00

after reli think it more than thousands times..
i think that nw is not my time 2 be in love again..
as it ll b bit early 4 me n her to make this important choices..
i think that i m rite at this time..
god bless

Choices

2008-01-18T04:19:00.000-08:00

in life people tend to make a lot of decision in their life...
like in the junction, u ve to choose walk straight, turn left, turn right or even turning back..
the decision u make ll affect ur life for sure..
nw i m in the junction...
i ve to choose between the person i like or the person tat like me...
i dunno hw to choose...
mayb i should jus stand still and let HIM choose for me?
or shall i fight?
is there stil any chances for me to excel?
i also dunno....

reject again?

2008-01-15T04:07:00.001-08:00

hha..
not even start get rejected le...
reli dunno y..
mayb she not suitable 4 me?
dunno..
shall i wait?
i also dunno..

Fyp

2008-01-12T21:43:00.000-08:00

Fyp=final year project
i guess have to summit around march
so i think nw is the time start doin it le..
good luck 2 me n all those ppl doin fyp..

wher is her?

2008-01-11T22:17:00.000-08:00

wher is her?
ya,,
been waitin for sometime le..
bt stil cant track her..
mayb it take time 4 me to locate wher is she..
mayb i should ve fully enjoy the single time..
mayb i should ve jus wait
mayb u should ve jus try my best..
mayb i shouldnt ve think so muc..
bliev tat she ll be mine no matter hw?
hah..dunno..jus it ll come at the correct time la..

she love me!!

2008-01-08T06:29:00.001-08:00

2day after talk v her
she admit that she gt feel 2 me..
so i m blur nw
i know i dun reli love her coz i jus wan 2 ve someone by my side nw
so i dun think tat i m rite 4 her..
n i m waitin 4 another her..
i like ride cow look 4 horse..
so it is nt fair...
help me!!!

misunderstanding?

2008-01-07T08:43:00.001-08:00

jus nw play msn v a fren..female..
she keep ask me if i miss her la..if i ll meet her la..
n when i ask y miss me?
she say i ll know de..
then i keep thinkin if the gal ve feel 2wards me?
bt i dun ve the feelin
so i ma say i dunno la..
then i msg her to ask her y she think tat..she reply say tat she say wrong le
i also hope it is a misunderstandin
cos i dun ve the feel 4 her..
i m waitin 4 someone..
someone tat waitn at ther 4 me too..
hhee
gd nite..

new year

2007-12-26T00:51:00.000-08:00

soon new year again..
old 1 year again liao
time pass..
so fast..
hope manage to grab wat i should grab when i ve the chance
i wish all my fren ve a gd life la
simple n easy wish huh
heh
n most important healthy always la

blur

2007-11-22T20:31:00.000-08:00

i still in usm with the reason wan finish my FYp..but things seem tio be very hard when u are about to take the first step..
so til nw i stil stuck at ther
plan to meet my prof later and hope manage to conduct some labs so able to bec sgt soon..
haha
wish me luck la

break

2007-11-21T19:08:00.000-08:00

hah..actually my relationship v her is jus like a series..
it seem like never ending..
after break up for times but still go bec together after sometime
so sometime i keep wonder y v ve 2 break then come bec again for n times?
v break bcos of certain reasons..
so it should be no turning bec 4 us..
bt things seem to be more complicated than wat i think
after break up..
v ll miss each other then tied bec again
but this time..
i think both of us ve make a smart choice..
cos finally v know tat each other is nt suit 2 each other...
tats y v learn to let go...
tats y we choose diff path..
hope she happy always..
n definitely i m happy nw to be single again...

i am back!

2007-11-21T06:23:00.000-08:00

again...really long time no write blog le..
i think about 1 year le..
time fly..
this year i nt reli busy
jus i 4gt tat i stil gt a blog at here..
so this is jus the beginning of my blog
hope tat i ll write something new 2moro o mayb later

leasson.....

2007-01-15T16:42:00.000-08:00

sigh..wat u two say remind me of my attitude when i was in my secondary school..hha..at tat time i m dominan..so i cn shout at ppl most of the time..dunno y..mayb some of them ll think tat i m a jerk too...bt at here..i hardly tell them wat i think o feel..coz they ll jus say"u cn say anything u want de la.."so sometime i rather keep quiet than quarrel with them about those thing..coz i dun feel it worth 4 them 2 know me o waste time quarrel about those thing..heh..so when they try make their tone high..i ll keep quiet lo..
haha..make him like jerk
hehee
..i love u both..i do..hah..u know la..i m nt tat talkative front of stranger de la..so i feel more release here..thx u 2 again...(hah..ah mei..i feel up a bit le..hhehe..when u convo i ll b crazy!!hah.."
tai lo huh?life ok ma?msg me when u free la
)
gd day

fren....

2007-01-14T22:52:00.000-08:00

m..just like 2day i feel bit down..sigh..dunno wat 2 say...sometime jus like m i askin 2 muc from fren o fren askin 2 muc from me...i oso dunno..indidents tat happen around me sometime jus like remind me tat nt 2 put too muc hope on fren..mayb i need 2 improve hw 2 make fren v ppl o mayb i need to change my way of fren ppl...i dunno if sometime jus like they dun reli understand my position..keep naggin the old story like old nanny..tat make me on "fire"..n tired of their attitude..sigh...

i am who i am...

2007-01-14T03:29:00.000-08:00

haha...sometimes ppl say i m damn cocky..hah..i cant refuse that..coz sometime i m reli cocky..bt jus sometime i believe that who say i m cocky i jus d ppl tat by pass me owey o a hi-bye fren..coz those ppl know me well wont have tis opinion..haha..u cn ask urself about is q..bt if u feel tat too..mayb jus becoz sometime i m too woli n k of u so muc..so only ll 'misbehave"..hah..so soli ve 2 say to those ppl hurt by my cocky...bt u mus b glad coz i jus show my cocky front of my fren..hah..so u r lucky!!
nice day..

smoke!!

2007-01-04T06:35:00.000-08:00

tis few time out v fren..most of them smoke..
when in sgt..my fren smoke i ll say"oi..dun smoke la...nt gd 4 health.."
bt at here i dun say tat ..sometime i oso do join smokin v them..sigh..mayb i m 2 weak le..
bt i must stop tis s i know tat smoke is nt gd..
i must b strong rite?
heheh
happy new year la..

back le

2007-01-04T06:32:00.000-08:00

ya..reli stop writting blog for quite sometime le..
so tis time i m bec to continue write wat i think n wat i face here
so i can share v my dear ah mei n tai lo..
u two r the main reason tat i keep bein strong..
v u 2 ..i m so happy n secure..
hope u 2 are always ther 4 me ..n 4 sure i ll be ther too..
i love you 2...

the answer for the q that ts ask..

2006-09-23T23:17:00.000-07:00

haha..ok...2 make my best fren clear about my situation i have 2 write again about ppl bad ass...
y i dislike that guy...it is jus becoz
1) he live in my room b4 when i start moving in..he nvr pay me bt i oso nvr ask him to do so..bt wat make me mad is he dun help 2 clean the room...
2)he like to take advantage of other. he nw live v my other housemates..he nnvr do housework s he used nt around during weekend..while other clean like hell....
3)he thought that every single thing that we gave him is so naturally..he nvr appreaciate wat v giv...(i hate tis kind of nut)
my other housemate cn tolerate v him s i think they thought 1 day they might need their help..bt i swear that i won beg on him 4 his help....
other cn tolerate bt i cant is i cant sit ther n see a guy jus bz chatting while other work like hell..that nt the way i work..n i dunno la..
lot things happen here
tell u clearer x time

i am a freak?

2006-09-17T09:28:00.001-07:00

hehe..use to call ppl freak..weird and others..bt finally i realise that the ppl around me make me look like a jerk!hha..y i say so...coz i cant stand when found out some ppl are always taking advantages of other ppl..(mayb i wan 2 b a hero)..and i cant understand y some ppl ve 2 sacrifice jus for 1 ppl benefits?this call fair?this is wat we call tolerate?i dunno..i jus feel i cant stand of it anymore and jus feel like moving out of this place...i used to say "i am a devil"..bt here gt god damn many angel! willing sacrifice..dunno if they are gd o wat..bt jus i wont b 1 of them..i call them stupid while they call me"selfish"..am i the 1 they say?i dunno..

curry mee!

2006-09-03T07:55:00.000-07:00

hah..tat day i talked to my mom. i said"when v r kids..v r so poor n v cn only have a small curry mee in canteen when schol..at tat time the curry mee is the best curry mee that v ever had s v dun have muc money n the most important is it is nt ezsy to eat curry mee at that time."nw our finacial status stable d n when v eat the the best curry mee in the world..v still ll find out tat the curry mee tat v had when a kid is still the best.."
n the same thing ll go to our first love..as it is nt easy to have a gf so the 1t gf is always the best 4 me..n still deep in love with it..(hha..tai lo nt i cant let go bt u know la "if ther is a will,there is a way rite"so jus let me do something tat stupid n i swear tat it wont hurt me tat much compare to during her bd"so i m willing to wait n see and the most important thing is i still have the chance to go outside to xplore n see wat i reli want n willing to have..so tat thing wont bother me tat muc..bt still l bother me..haha.. )
so wat say u?u agree tat the 1st curry mee is still the best 4 u till nw?

wat should i do..?

2006-09-03T07:50:00.000-07:00

m..jus to voice out my opinion n hope tat u 2 ll reply o post something up to let me know wat is in ur mind..
like i ask u "should v keep a distance from the ppl tat r nw deep in love?'
my answer is very simple when i was young(nw already 23..so no more young)..."
if ppl ask this q when i was below 23 i will say"scare wat..v nvr have feeling n nvr do wrong thing y mus avoid each other o keep some distance from each other s it is nt ez to gt a true fren.."
bt when i nw in 23 yr ols,my anser is.."we should k of wat her partner think rite..s v also wont that happy if ther is a boy that keep sticking v the ppl tat v love..so ther is a bit frustrated hope tat u 2 cn say something.."

happy day..

2006-09-03T07:43:00.000-07:00

hha..i m very happy on 29th of aug..it is jus becoz tat day was my birthday..want to thanks to all my fren n their blessing also..haah..it is such a good time 4 us..n 4 my best fren tai lo..thx 4 d cake n the gift..x year o the year after i hope u cn appear in my bd party..haha..n my ah mei..thx 4 d lunch..it was great n simply unforgetable..hah..thx again to all my fren..n nt 4gting my family..thx my mom n dad 4 making me out ..haha..n my siblings 4 being bec from their working places jus to celebrate n have great time v me..thx again

after write blog

2006-08-12T06:09:00.000-07:00

everytime after write my blog..i feel so good..mayb i ve wrote out wat i hide inside..so nw i fel gd d....bt i ll continue wat i do b4 s i bliev tat i m doin a rite thing tat i should do..i ll continue my journey tho the journey is long n boring n unsecure..o alone..i still will walk till the end..mayb u ll say i mstupid..hha..i admit tat i m tat stupid de la..like trany say"human are so tiny...cant change nything tat happened d...i agree tat ..bt i ll try 2 change..i bliev n i hope u all tat bliev in urself tat u can do it..tho it look stupid..hhalike wat i m doin nw...thc 2 u all n god bless

生日

2006-08-12T05:29:00.000-07:00

也许是上天的安排，，在你和我说出你有男朋友后，我还是无可救药的爱上了你，，也许是从没人给我这样的感觉，，也许只是上帝给我开的一个小玩笑，，，就这样我们开始了，，从开始到现在从希望到绝望，，，我一步一步走向谷底，，爱一个人要受多大的伤，我不知道，但我知道我在一点一点的消耗自己，，我不后悔爱过，现在不，以后也不会，，和你在一起快2年了，，每一天，我都在期待着奇迹的出现，，，每一天我都告诉自己，总有一天，你会发现最爱你的那个人是谁？？我不害怕等待，，但是这样的等待没有普通意义上的甜蜜，只有无尽的煎熬。而这一切，我从没有告诉过你，在我看来，你应该是快乐的，，，面对两个爱你的男人，你应该是幸福的。如果对我的一切只是你对男人的报复，，那么请相信我，，你做到了，，你做到了让一个男人在没有任何其它利益的驱动下，容忍自己爱的女人还爱着另外的男人，，可以象一条狗一样对着自己的主人摇头摆尾，，，爱是自私的，是不容和别人分享的，知道没有资格让你去选择。和你在一起的日子，是我这么多年来最快乐的，很感谢你给我的所有，，希望你以后的日子能快乐，幸福，记的自己的身体不好，不要生闷气，有想法的时候就去实现，，你有能力和条件去实现你的梦想，相信我，你可以的不用自卑，相信自己，，人就只有一生，可以在有生之年实现自己的梦想是一件幸福的事。把自己的心放开一些，不希望看到你不快乐，你过的幸福快乐，是我的心愿，也是我最后的要求。写到这里。。我的心还是好乱。。今天是你的生日。。我好想和你大声地说“生日快乐。。我爱你。。好爱你。。”如果可以，我愿意把我的心割出来。。让我不再爱你。。就好像Pirate Of The Carabian 里头的坏人。。“我好想变成十恶不赦的坏人哪。。那我就永远不会再有资格去爱你了。。”我可以吗。。。？好乱。。真的好乱。。。好黑。。我的世界好黑暗。。我的世界好冷。。

after break stil remain fren?

2006-08-03T22:17:00.000-07:00

i think lots of ppl face this kind of situation afterthey break v their love 1..."wat should i respond when face him o her?".."i feel so embarrass when meet her o him"..i do face this kind of problem oso s i m a normal human bein...i went thru an article somedays ago...ther is 1 sentence in the article tat reli draw my attention"if u cn fren bec v ur ex tat mean u all nvr reli love eah other b4!"tis sentence reli mak me frustrated.."y the author say so".."is it real"..?s i mention above i been went thru tis situation..n nw i do agree v wat the author say..coz ...if u reli love ur partners u ll giv it all u cn 2 him o her..n u willin 2 share all the bad n gd v them..n u ll think tat they r the perfect..after u break..u cant b fren?y?jus bcoz she o he is stil the best u ever had n u angry v them..mad v them...s u stil very k n love them!tat y after break cant b fren!..if u break n stil cn b fren?tats mean u just take them s the spare tire only..n dun reli ve d heart 2 lov n v them..wat u 1 from them is want to fill ur free time!..tat is very bad huh?so wat u all think ?

huicui

2006-08-03T22:05:00.000-07:00

hhah...again i m usin a gal name 2 write my blog...m..she is my ah mei...tho she is nt from my family bt she is so close 2 me..hw close?m..reli close..she is d gal tat cn read my mind..so she is danger 4 me oso sometime..she is weird!y?bcoz she used 2 ve different thinkin than wat a woman should ve..mayb i shouldnt ve say her weird..bt she is reli a gal tat no other cn b..she is caring sometime n lovely sometime...bt she oso ve her fierce..so it is nt easy 2 b her bf..ther is somethng tat i reli 1 2 share v her..bt it is hard 2 convince or persuide her from here s i m far from her...i want to tel her tat:"just b wat u like n tho u r wrong bt if u insists tat u cn success oso..n i fel soli 4 teachin u all tat 歪道理..s sometime it is jus the way i think only..u ve 2 ve ur own thinkin...jus like wat ppl say ...dun just look on their bad side..c the goodness inside them..discover them..."so nw i owey try 2 look ppl gd side...n sometime tho tat ppl is nt useful 4 us bt ther is nt wrong nor waste if v fren v them rite?jus enjoy the living process in upm n appreaciate it..k"miss u n bless u v watever i cn..if u ever need my help..jus tel me...ll b ther anytime n anywher when u need me...hahha

u should read this

2006-08-02T18:31:00.000-07:00

一个故事给心情不好的朋友国王有七个女儿，这七位美丽的公主是国王的骄傲。她们那一头乌黑亮丽的长发远近皆知。所以国王送给她们每人一百个漂亮的发夹。有一天早上，大公主醒来，一如往常地用发夹整理她的秀发，却发现少了一个发夹，于是她偷偷地到了二公主的房里，拿走了一个发夹。二公主发现少了一个发夹，便到三公主房里拿走一个发夹；三公主发现少了一个发夹，也偷偷地拿走四公主的一个发夹；四公主如法炮制拿走了五公主的发夹；五公主一样拿走六公主的发夹；六公主只好拿走七公主的发夹。于是，七公主的发夹只剩下九十九个。隔天，邻国英俊的王子忽然来到皇宫，他对国王说：「昨天我养的百灵鸟叼回了一个发夹，我想这一定是属于公主们的，而这也真是一种奇妙的缘分，不晓得是哪位公主掉了发夹？」公主们听到了这件事，都在心里想说：「是我掉的，是我掉的。」可是头上明明完整的别着一百个发夹，所以都懊恼得很，却说不出。只有七公主走出来说：「我掉了一个发夹。」话才说完，一头漂亮的长发因为少了一个发夹，全部披散了下来，王子不由得看呆了。故事的结局，想当然的是王子与公主从此一起过着幸福快乐的日子。为什么一有缺憾就拼命去补足？一百个发夹，就像是完美圆满的人生，少了一个发夹，这个圆满就有了缺憾；但正因缺憾，未来就有了无限的转机，无限的可能性，何尝不是一件值得高兴的事！人生不可免的缺憾，你怎样面对呢？
逃避不一定躲得过
面对不一定最难受
孤单不一定不快乐
得到不一定能长久
失去不一定不再有
转身不一定最软弱
别急着说别无选择
别以为世上只有对与错许多事情的答案都不是只有一个
所以 ~ 我们永远有路可以走你能找个理由难过你也一定能找到快乐的理由懂得放心的人找到轻松懂得遗忘的人找到自由懂得关怀的人找到朋友天冷不是冷心寒才是寒愿你的心都是暖暖的.... 人的长大伴随着一些失落,人的成熟附带着一些伤痕.好在有希望这东西,你总还可以去等；好在人与人之间，距离产生美感；好在生命里,快乐比痛苦多；好在这个世界,还有很多美丽；好在当你成熟的时候，你还不算一无所有!

haha..i want to b like tat oso

2006-08-02T18:21:00.000-07:00

其实每个男孩，本来都是想做一个感情专一的好男人的。　　
其实每个男孩，本来看女孩子都是看脸而不是胸部的。　　
其实每个男孩，本来都是不会讲黄色笑话的。　　
其实每个男孩，本来都是渴望爱一个人直到永远的。　　
只是，没有任何女孩爱这样的男孩，她们觉得这样的男孩太幼稚，太古板，没有情趣。　　
于是男孩开始改变，变成女孩喜欢的那种嘴角挂着坏坏的笑,玩世不恭或者幽默,开始学会说甜言蜜语而不是心里想说的话,开始学会假装关心，学会给女孩送小饰物讨好她,学会如何追求，如何把握爱情。或者看破红尘，游戏情场，成为女人恨恨的那种男人。　　
他们可以很容易俘获女孩子的心但是他们也会在黑的夜里叼着烟流泪,心里有爱的时候,没有女孩.有了女孩，却永远没有了爱的感觉在听到女人抱怨世上没有一个好男人时候他们不会再去努力做个好男人，只是微笑着擦肩而过……

道信

2006-07-29T09:49:00.000-07:00

yo man....tis is the best fren tat i ever had in my life..know me the most n been broters for somedays d..tho v r apart bt v stil quite close n gt lot things to chat about when we meet..mayb 2 of us r tat kinf of talkative ppl n like 2 flirt around v others gals...bt tis guy is reli a nice man...he encourage me n giv me the courage tat i should have...i want to say "thank you my fren...without u i wont b going any farer than tat..."

我是懦夫？

2006-07-29T03:16:00.000-07:00

昨天，我朋友告述我：“你很怕事！”为什么呢？只因为我没有去拒绝别人来参他们打球。。我像篮球场又不是我的啦。。每个人都有自由去打球。。你要如何和别人说？你难道说“对不起，这里满人了。。去别场啪。。”你做得到吗？我做不到因为他们是我的朋友。。我不能为了一些人的高兴而去得得罪别人。。我不要也不愿做。。因为“我高兴但别人不高兴的事，我一定做。别人高兴但我不高兴的事，我一定不会做。我高兴而别人也高兴的事，我非做不可！”哈哈哈。。这就是我的源哲了。。

我爱你！

2006-07-16T02:23:00.000-07:00

我爱你！你知道吗？你也许认为我早已你忘了。。但是这一路走来你都还深深地活在我的心中。。我的心从没那么伤至到你有了男朋友。。我好想祝福你但我知道我做不到。。永远都做不到。。因为我还爱你。。如果以后有机会的话。。给我一个机会好吗。。让我陪你到老。。不在离开你了。。没有你的世界只剩下黑暗和寂寞。。待我离开这样的世界好吗。。我在这里等你。。永远的。。爱你和呵护着你。。好吗？我爱你秀姬。。。